I find that poetry is a wonderful form of expression. Here are some of the poems I’ve written these last several months.
———————
I am raw
Stripped down to bone
Heart in pieces
Lost I wander
From moment to moment
Up and down
Round and round
Piercing pain
Sorrow black and gray
Broken-hearted
A swirling whirling mesh
Of deep aches and hot tears
(May 7, 2009)
———————
I continue to breathe
The sun rises and sets
Yet time has stopped
My heart still beats
Earth spins on its axis
But I am motionless
A flurry of activity surrounds me
Blurring my vision
Tears flow ceaselessly
In sorrow I sit quietly
The days come and go
Though in my heart it is winter still
Memories of you abound
Sight and sounds meaningless now
For my time stopped with you
(July 5, 2009)
———————
I am swimming in memories of you
The last eight years wash over me
Some like the pounding surf
Others are a gentle rain
If only I could drown in these remembrances of you
To be with you again in spirit, to be free of this agony
(July 6, 2009)
———————
Time marches onward
Pulling me with it
Shadows cling
Shrouding my every thought
Drab and dull
Are the colors and the sounds
Whispers sent away on the wind
Echoing in my mind
Zev, my darling girl, I will be with you again…
One day, some day… soon
(August 18, 2009)
———————
Memories of you so vivid
Every detail etched in stone
Upon my heart
(September 5, 2009)
———————-
With your love, my soul took flight
Soaring on the breeze that is your laughter
Songs and Sorrow 
One Comment
Hello Caitlin: All I can say is “wow”.You write very well,and even gave me some food for thought.I’m almost 62,and I don’t have answers.There are things that I want to believe to make loss easier after one has passed,but I may never know the truth.I just know that Zev’s passing has torn me up,and I don’t know why.It could be for many reasons,or just one of many reasons.I do know that I just want her back with her parents,and I would have loved to have known her.
Love you,Aunt Katie